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May 6th, 2009 (12:55 am)

ok ... so there's a commercial on TV that I find waaaaay disturbing.

It's a commercial for some brand of woman's razor ... Gilette something or other.

It's a series of scenes where women are walking past random bushes ... and as they walk by, the bushes are magically trimmed-up and shaped ...  into a triangle, a rectangle ... you get the idea.  And at first glance I didn't get it.  I was sitting there thinking "why does that woman have a bush in her bathroom, and why does it look like it was grown in a martini glass?"  But by the second time through I had moved from confused to repulsed.

I mean, think about that advertizing board room meeting.  How did THIS idea get through?  How is it that "trimming the bushes" wasn't seen as a little too literal a translation to be apropriate, much less appealing?

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networking ...

April 22nd, 2009 (01:43 pm)

current mood: impressed

So yesterday at the end of a long day of work I hopped on a train and headed into the city to meet up with my brother.

He's been a part of a couple of different business networking groups for a while now, and he's been politely suggesting that I might want to go to one since the beginning of the year.  Now the truth of the matter is that the very word "networking" kind of gives me an instant knot in my gut.  I'm not a wander-around-a-cocktail-party-handing-out-business-cards sort of girl.  The idea of having to spend two full hours trying to drum up business by  making small talk in a room full of random strangers is pretty much my worst nightmare.

So I've been dreading and passively avoiding having to do this for a while, but I knew that eventually I was going to end up going.  Then I found out that he's actually taking over one of his groups and was planning his first big whatever for last night and wanted me to come.   And since I've messed at least two of the meetings that he's invited me to, I really felt obligated to go to the one last night to make it up to him. 

So I just barely managed to get there on time ... but that is another long and boring story.  The point is that I got there, and I was so flustered and worked up from the day I'd already had that the first 15 minutes were nothing short of agonizing torture.  The room was a little cramped, and at one point I got stuck in one spot, blocked by a bunch of people having conversations around me, and unable to find a single other person who was unoccupied and not already talking .... can  you spell L-O-O-S-E-R?  Ugh, I wanted to die.

But then, about 20 minutes into it they started the meeting and we all sat around a big table and that's when everything got much better.  First we all passed our business cards around the table, so everyone got everyone else's without all the work of handing them out to people.  Then one by one everyone at the table stood up and gave a quick 90 second introduction of who they were and what they did.  That worked for me, since I'm much better at addressing a crowd than making small talk one on one.  Plus it gave everyone a chance to figure out who they might want to meet.

After that they held a brainstorming session where someone at the table explained a problem that they were having with their business and everyone else shot out ideas for solutions.  It was actually pretty cool.  The whole environment was much more giving and supporting that I was expecting.  For some reason, I alwasy thought of networking groups as rather preditory deal-hunting environments.  But this group really seemed focused on how people could help each other. 

And then at the close of the meeting I met three or four people who sought me out either because they were looking for a bookkeeper for their business or they knew someone who was.  It was really cool.  So what started out as an absolutely dreadful night actually turned into something incredibly positive and productive. 

Oh and did I mention that the meeting was held in the offices of one of the members who just happened to be a baker and just HAPPENED to have some of the most amazing cookies I've ever tasted in my life? (chocolate espresso hazelnut I think ...).  those cookies plain old stopped me in my tracks.

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ABCs of Me

April 19th, 2009 (08:00 pm)

because it's Sunday night and I'm bored

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Writer's Block: Looking Back

April 14th, 2009 (03:05 pm)

LiveJournal is turning 10 and we're feeling nostalgic. What was your first LJ post about?
It was all about how bored and unmotivated I was feeling ...
I guess that some things never change =)

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April 13th, 2009 (05:56 am)

So this weekend I was talking to someone about having a "bring it on" attitude as a Christian.  Because if we're walking in God's will and standing on His word then we have an assurance that no matter what happens no weapons formed against us can prosper.  There was never a promise that there won't be attacks, but we can know that they won't succeed.  So if we know we can't be touched, why do we let ourselves get all worked up and worried when an attack does come?

So when I walked into church yesterday morning and absolutely EVERYTHING that could go wrong seemed to be popping up ... well, when it comes to walking in faith it's always easier said than done, so if I'm going to walk around and say "bring it on", I'd better be ready to live it too...

This is what happened when I showed up on Sunday.
... there was work done on the floors over the week, which was great because that meant we had new floors.  What wasn't so great was that there was a thick film of sawdust covering absolutely EVERY surface in the room.  Our tablecloths were ruined, our chairs were filthy, and the carpet looked like they'd been snowed on.

The store where we normally go for our tablecloths was closed, we couldn't find a working vacume ... and did I mention that none of the outlets were working and we couldn't figure out why???  Oh ... and one of our last minute costumes didn't really fit the actor.  And the person who was supposed to bring background tracks for the monolouges didn't. 

And we were trying to get everything done with about half the normal number of people ...

Thank GOD for grace.

Because somehow, even when one thing after another went wrong, every problem found a solution, and piece by piece I watched everything fall right into the perfect place.  We found a dollar store that sold the right sized tablecloths.  We got to work with a broom that at least hid the horrors of the dust on the carpet.  We were able to clean the handrails and some of the most obvious ledges.  Somehow we found a working outlet.  Stacy came through with the perfect music at the last minute.  And we managed to piece together an alternative for the costume in question. 

So at the end of the day, dispite an insane amount of clamouring at the beginning of the day, it ended up being an absolutely beautiful Easter service.  I couldn't have been happier with the way it turned out.  Thank God.

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April 6th, 2009 (05:56 pm)

current mood: satisfied

I love these rainy days.  I love having to hurry to my car ... running through the raindrops, as my grandmother used to call it.  I love curling up under a blankey and sipping tea on my couch.  I love watching my way through a stack of DVDs while piecing together new quilts. 

It's a day for sleeping
It's a day for baking ... or it would be if I baked
It's a day for pulling out old projects
It's a day for tea and cookies

What a wonderful wonderful day ...

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Writer's Block: Previously on My Journal

March 27th, 2009 (01:46 pm)

If a friend started reading your journal today, what would you need to fill them in on so they could understand what you're writing about?
Hahahahahaha!  Everything!
Sometimes I write entries so cryptic that I have to explain them to the friends who've been reading my journal for years. 
But seriously, there's probably a couple of random threads that they would have to be let in on (assuming they don't already know) ... family drama, church details, and work stuff ... that would keep them pretty caught up until such time as they went back into my history to catch up on the past 6 years or so.

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The Children's Service ...

March 22nd, 2009 (06:47 pm)

current mood: ecstatic

... it was simply overwhelming.  I'm still stunned by the way everything worked out.  It's a perfect example of that verse ... God works all things together for GOOD for us.

Originally the children's service was kind of an afterthought squeeze-it-in-before-easter kind of a thing.  I mean, we talked about it and made plans for it and all of that, but it wasn't specifically something that we pushed to make into a big deal.

Then as the service got closer and we had less time, my expectation level sort of dropped.  There didn't seem to be any kind of a surge of effort to get anything done.  It wasn't that we weren't talking about it, it just didn't feel like any progress was being made.

Then this weekend out of nowhere God somehow pulled the whole thing together.  Within 24 hours (between Friday and Saturday night) it went from this little service idea to a full blown production.  And it all happened in the blink of an eye.  It seemed like I turned around and suddenly EVERYONE was involved, doing something to help the show.  Some of that involvement was as simple as going to the store and picking up oak tag, or taping decorations to the walls of the stage, or cutting and pasting a sign together ... but everyone did something, and before I knew it everything was DONE, and the finished product was soooo much better than I ever expected.

And then this morning it seemed like everything that could slow us down was being thrown in the way - everything from problems with the slideshow to balloons popping to the FUNERAL that they had going in our building.  And five minutes before service was supposed to start the sound system failed and no one was there ... and even so it didn't even occur to me to be worried about it. 

And sure enough, around 11:10 worship started and the kids went up on stage and started dancing and the spirit of God broke through and literally within 30 minutes the room was FULL of new families and there were a dozen kids dancing in the front and the worship was just flowing and everything was in full swing.

From that point on it was just moving from Glory to GLORY ... everything went off without a hitch, all of the kids had a great time, and everyone left with big smiles on their faces.  I was just sooooooo overwhelmed, I can't even begin to describe it.

And so the little squeezed-in afterthought of a children's service is now tied for my favorite services so far in 2009.  I love it when God moves in on a situation and turns it around into something I wasn't expecting.

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Busy busyness and joy!

March 19th, 2009 (07:14 am)

So I'm getting geared up and psyched for the fun and exciting events of the upcoming month.  My weekends got busy again in a heck of a hurry, and I love it!

This weekend we're having a special children's service at church - which of course means cute skits and slide shows and special decorations and baloons and all of that great stuff.  I'm decorating the stage tomorrow, which should just set me off for the rest of the weekend of shopping and joy and fun!

Then next weekend is the shower in PA.  I've been amped for it for weeks, and having to wait and wait to start cooking for it is just driving me absolutely nuts. 

Then it's a two week stretch of fun and joy with Palm Sunday and Easter.  Which reminds me ... I need to get working on an easter script ASAP ... I should probably start working on it now ....

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Writer's Block: Know Thyself

March 14th, 2009 (03:26 am)

current mood: tired

What habit of your own annoys other people? Have you ever tried to change it?

I have a bad habit of dropping off the planet for a few days at a time.  Every month or two I turn into a virtual hermit.  I ignore my phone, I don't answer my e-mails, I miss work ... I just disappear into my own little world, locked away from everyone around me. 

It's an especially annoying habit when people are trying to get in touch with me, but I've never tried to change it.  It's my time to recharge and I'd never survive without it.

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I'm sorry, I just can't right now

February 18th, 2009 (12:03 pm)

current mood: cranky

... Two hours into my work day today I looked up from my desk and thought "this is eye blearing work".  The work itself is not all that hard, but this day is draining the life out of me.

See, I walked into the title office this morning (for the first time since my last rant) and within about 30 minutes I just wanted to run away.


*  I found that EVERY SINGLE PIECE OF PAPER on my desk had been moved, shuffled, and piled haphazardly on one corner
*  Not only are they out of coffee, but they're out of cups as well, so I can't even make tea -- and I did NOT get enough sleep last night for that to be hunkey dorey
*  Boss lady called me into her office and basically asked me to do two days worth of work in a morning because she didn't feel like making a transfer.
*  Manager lady has been huffing around my desk "waiting" for me to "finish" so I can do whatever stupid thing she wants done.

But on the bright side, there's a nice spicy apple cake in the kitchen.
That, and it's a half day here, so in an hour or so I get to run away and go somewhere else.

No office should ever be this agravating

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February 10th, 2009 (04:30 pm)
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current mood: frustrated

I am feeling somewhat disgruntled working at this title company
I'm getting caught in the middle of a bicker-fest between the boss and the office manager
They both run around and complain about how the other one is messing in things that isn't any of her business, and how the other one is always putting her fingers/nose/voice where it doesn't belong, and how the other one doesn't understand how their interference netagively impacts the flow of business

And the worst part is that they're both right.  They each have a different set of priorities, and both priority sets are wrong.  They both get themselves involved in things that they'd be better staying out of, and it makes everyone's work harder. 

The boss runs around and quadruple checks everything, changing her mind about things every 7 minutes and generally making everyone crazy with her shifting focus and imaginary deadlines. She comes to me at least twice a day to ask me why I haven't done things that she'd just told me not to do.  She makes giant emergencies out of things that don't really matter in the long run.  And when she says "get this done some time next week" she really means "I'm going to ask you for it some time this afternoon."  It's impossible to prioritize my tasks with her, because she's always shifting her focus and changing her mind, and asking me about things that I'd done weeks ago.  The worst is when she explains to me how what I did was wrong and why I can't ever do it again when I'm not actually the one who did whatever it is she's complaining about.

The office manager, on the other hand, loves to interrupt people from whatever they're doing to have 20 minute conversations about things that don't matter yet.  Every week she comes and throws piles of work onto my desk.  She spends HOURS every day complaining about how much work she has to do, and how hard it is to do everything when she keeps on getting interrupted.  I just feel like pointing out that she could probably clear off her desk in one day if she'd shut up long enough to get any work done.  She also loves to gripe about the boss' salary and expense accounts - like it's any of her business how her employer choses to spend the company's money.  It's not like she doesn't get paid a pretty penny too ...  And the worst part for me is when I come in on a Monday morning to find that she's gone though everything on my desk, taken stuff off, hand written checks, and basically tried to do my job with things that could have waited for me to get there to do them.

I want to shoot them both - which is probably why I just ran into a woman who works here that used to go to my church, and why we had the discussion where my faith came up while we were standing in front of the Boss.  God's going to keep my honest and on the up-and-up about my walk, even when I'm dealing with people I can't stand.

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Writer's Block: Table for One

February 5th, 2009 (02:53 am)

Do you ever go out to dinner (at a sit-down restaurant) by yourself?
I rarely do this any more (who has the time? or the money, for that matter ...) but it uesd to be one of my favorite solitary activities.  There's only so much time you can spend alone, even when you want nothing more than to be by yourself.  But alone in a public place ... you can chose your own level of interaction with those around you, and nobody minds if you don't feel like doing anything more than people watching.  It's the perfect balance of solitude and connection to the outside world.

Restaurants were always among my favorite places for a little public solitude (as well as bookstores and movie theaters ... I still do the theaters from time to time).  Normally I brought a little work to do while I was there, mostly so I would have something to occupy my hands and eyes while I was waiting for my food. But normally I'd end up at a seat by the window, staring out at the world passing by, and enjoying every second of it.

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virtual environmentalism

February 3rd, 2009 (11:48 am)

current mood: irritated

This morning, as I was deleting useless files off of my desktop at work I found myself stuck on a rediculous question:

At what point did the makers of our computer software decide to become virtually environmentally responsible?
Does anyone else remember when useless files were put into the "trash"?

Why, now, does all my electronic garbage go into an electronic "recycle bin"?  And how long has this been going on without my being awake enough to ask the question?

I mean it's information, useless bits of electronic information ... it's NOT paper!  If I thought it was worth re-using, I wouldn't be tossing it to begin with. It's not packaging material that's going to sit in a landfill ... it's data ... on a computer .... it's not REAL!!!!

Is this a subliminal "take care of the planet" message?  Did market researchers test the two terms find "recycle" to have a better response?  Were there focus groups who said that they figured microsoft was an environmentally friendly company based on the "recycle" icon sitting on the desktop?  Get real people ...

I want my trash can back.

This reminds me of those commercials that ran a few years ago with a whole bunch of celebs who were sponsoring some charity website or another ... they weren't collecting money ... I can't remember how they phrased it, but all they wanted was to inform us about whatever it was ... bizarre

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I have buckled under the pressure, and decided to write

January 27th, 2009 (03:30 pm)

current mood: bored

Dictionary word of the day:

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(no subject)

January 27th, 2009 (11:09 am)

In case anyone was wondering, it took me 12 minutes to start my computer and open quickbooks this morning.

I like my new client just fine, but this computer is older than I am.  I shouldn't have to count to 10 while I'm waiting for a new page to load.

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Because I'm icon giddy

January 11th, 2009 (05:34 am)

current mood: amused

I'm just in the mood to post whatever nonsense I can think of - just as an excuse to throw a new icon up.

So here's to happy Sundays and a wonderful start to 2009.

And no, you don't want to know what I'm doing up and on my computer at 5:30 in the morning.

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The new icons

January 10th, 2009 (07:45 pm)

current mood: happy

So I have buckled under the pressure of my own obsession and changed (temporarily, at least) my icon character of choice. 

Don't worry - my legolas archive is still available, so I can go back whenever I get the urge.  But for now I'm having fun hunting for new joy and happiness

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My new obsession

January 7th, 2009 (05:38 am)

So I'm currently enjoying a nice slow simmering obsession with Dr. Who, the series.

In all seriousness though - what's not to love?  It's part sci-fi, part historical fantasy, and part comedy.  It's well written, well acted, well imagined ... it's just corny enough in all the right places.  It's full of action, just a little bit scary, and it always leaves you with a twinge of meloncholy gnawing at your gut.  I LOVE that little twinge of meloncholy - that's how I know I'm watching something worth while.

I was given (thank you very much) the first three seasons for Christmas.  And I have been making a point of NOT watching all 40+ episodes within the first week.  I've done a good job - I've had it for 8 days now, and I still have a quarter of season 2 left to watch.  Of course the special features disks have been a big help in that area.

It's so bad, I am actually considering replacing my legolas icon collection, at least for a little while, with the Doctor.

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I scored 101 out of 240

December 20th, 2008 (02:25 am)

ok, so this one looks like fun ...

It's really just a "mark the movies that you've seen" sort of thing ... they say if you've seen more than 85, that means you have no life ... I say it just means that you like movies.

There are 240 films on the list ... how many have you seen


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